You think I like walking around protecting every breath I take?
You think it feels good having to live life not knowing which word will make me break?
My guard is all I have left, that has taught me how to survive.…
It protects me
I know I have a safe place where I can hide.
I never wanted to end up this cold
like an ice berg leaving frostbite to those who come to close.
But life has taught me the only way to get by,
is to put this mask on but never let them see you cry.
I wish so badly I could let my guard down expose how I truly feel
Maybe I wouldn’t be accused of not working on the pain I try so hard to heal
You wouldn’t know what to do if your were to ever be in my shoes
This mask comes with years of pain
Disloyalty, shame,rape and abuse
This mask is all I have left.
Taking it off would be like changing my first name.
So when you tell me my demeanor is to much for you to handle
Imagine what it would be like taking something off that’s kept you alive,
Next time your quick to judge
Try to remember everyone is struggling trying to survive.